Wild Woman!

I feel so invigorated and alive! I've just come out of the sea on this damp, grey day. There is blue sky scattered only around the horizon & smokey grey clouds feel heavy & low. Howth has its little cotton-wool hat on & the churned up sea has a wildness to it.

All the morning walkers are in the park and I feel like Wild Woman here appreciating real nature rather than tarmac footpaths. I'm really proud of myself for stripping off and going in even after my toe screamed " Are you mad? It's bloody freezing!" My body warmed up surprisingly quickly (numbed is probably more accurate)

Bring it on!

My whole life is different today than it was 3 months ago. I now have a new responsibility and a new awareness.  We ran out of bottled water this morning and I'd now rather go thirsty than drink the tap water. Since researching for cancer I've really studied what's in tap water & I know the true horrors of Fluoride (and living the consequences with hypothyroidism) It's another poison that we consume on a daily basis unaware of the damage. How much do I get in a day, a week, month, 40 years?? Too much!

2 months ago I was living a typical normal life thinking arrogantly that I was healthy. Yes, I had lots of rabbit food in my diet and I took supplements. I don't drink or smoke. I exercise daily and do meditation, singing, self development & would have thought I'm quite in tune with my body. 'Out of the blue' a lump appears and my world changes. I have that in italics because I know I ignored so many signs. I did so out of ignorance as to how my body functions. This is generations of ignorance! Since birth I've learned that other people know best. When I was little, I went through a phase of asking "why?"  Why does it rain? How do the clouds get the water? How does it stay in the clouds? Where does it go? Why do my fingers go blue when I'm cold? etc etc. Any of you with kids have been through all of this :)  Well, it was unfortunately only a phase because, having received the frustrated sigh " because it just does!" so many times, I learned that I was a pest and just stopped asking questions.

This, on a large scale, disempowers us. We expect that someone else knows stuff that we don't. We let other people make decisions for us and grumble when it doesn't work out as hoped. Who can know you, as you know yourself? We go to the doctor who studied the workings of the body and what drug will cure which ailment. If there's no drug to cure you they can just cut out the bad bit and hope for the best!